[艾爾] something for now

it is just nothing
i just want to say something about me

i am alone now
because i enjoy this feeling
that is not meaning i don't want to love someone
i just prefer be free to be bound

when i am alone
i listen to my favorate musics
i read my favorate novels
i miss my memory
i think what my aim is
i talk to myself
i laugh at the memory about my friends
i stare at the sky
i can miss your everything

maybe someone say that is so lonely
but i like it
i can know what lone is
i get the story from it

because i am living.....
i am happy........

[艾爾] i am learning how to be happy....

recently, i find i like to smile...
i am changing
my personality turn into facing everything actively

some people say i have changed so much
maybe that is right
because i don't know who i was in past
but now i know i am existing clearly

everyone i know...
i want to tell you i am different
now, you should understand me again
now, i should confront my weakness by myself
i need to grow up
i need to be a man
i need to be a somebody

so...i compel myself to change my hobby
so...i compel myself to understand this world
so...i compel myself to contact with everyone

i try do it
now....i am trying
because i want happiness....